According to a little tourist guide, Philippines, by Chris Rowthorn, Greg Bloom, Michael Day, Michael Grosberg, Ryan Ver Berkmoes, “Cebu is the hub around which the Visayas revolves. It is the most densely populated island in the Philippines and is second only to Luzon in its strategic and economic importance to the country. Its language, Cebuano, is widely spoken throughout the Visayas and parts of Mindanao, and its capital, Cebu City, is a magnet for migrants from all over the region.”
The sun was out today fully shining, but at the same time a warm rain fell from invisible clouds. I felt much like the weather today, the beaming sunshine and tears that just seeped out from nowhere. Today I said goodbye to my best friend and roommate. Everybody here at Bigfoot has a few things unchangeably in common. One of those things is the willingness to relocate to a remote location usually far away from our homes. We are all travelers. We are all open minded to new things. We all want to experience places, things, everything. With these qualities we might think that we would be used to the constant coming and going of new people in and out of our experiences as we each embark on new adventures in different directions, maybe someday to meet again, but no guarantee. Once in a while you meet people that truly touch you though. Those people are a real part of your experience. They mean everything. Sadly enough, those people have to carry on with their journeys… just as I must carry on with my own. So as my roommate embarks on her trip to Thailand, I struggle to push out of the invisible rain cloud. Every time one of my experiences comes to an end, I always end up having something wonderful to start in its place. I guess I have spent the last several years living from one experience to the next. Never actually letting them end without quickly replacing them with a new one. In this way I never really have a chance to be miserable about things ending. Sadly, I haven’t had a new experience to replace this friendship with in these few hours that this experience has come to its bittersweet end. So I will wallow in my temporary apathy as unfamiliar a feeling as it may be.
My time at Bigfoot as a model has been so valuable I find it almost hard to put into words. I have learned life lessons that have been so difficult at the time but have hardened me to the ever-changing and often harsh world in which we live. For example, I will never forget the day I had to move the first time. I was so happy in Casa with my roommate, everything was perfect. Then out of the blue my roommate tells me we both have to move out that evening. They needed our room and were putting us with different roommates also. I was so sad, miserable. Packing felt like I was moving away forever. I was filled with uncertainty about my new room, just the whole idea of the impermanence of my life here and the short notice to leave and make a new home. By the next day I had found that my new room and roommate were so amazing and the entire experience turned out to be so wonderful. A few weeks later I once again was notified by my roommate that I was moving… They were again splitting me from the person I got so comfortable with. We both moped around, sulking in our depression… feeling mad about our relocation. As it turned out I got to move into my last roommate’s new room! So ultimately, again, I had a positive outcome. Who would have figured. I have to say thank you in the end for each and every experience like this. Honestly, although I am not learning to pack less for an easy move, I am learning that any place you go can be a new home and that it is not the end of the world.
So now I am finding those new experiences, trying so hard to stay busy every second to not miss those wonderful people that have continued on their journeys. As I write this blog I reflect on people, experiences, life in the Philippines. I can only look back in gratitude to each and every person who has been a part of this experience and continues to in the future. And walk ahead in a positive light for a new experience and great day in Paradise tomorrow.